It started out as a "fashion blog"- I wanted to take pictures of myself in different outfits and post them, just for the sake of taking pictures of my outfits and posting them. Even to this day, I feel the urge to take a picture if I'm wearing something cute, but this blog really isn't about that anymore.
It's about me- not the things I wear, or the things I eat (yet another original directive for the blog) but about me as a person. My random musings, photography I find on tumblr, zachary quinto, EVERYTHING.
I'm a totally different person than I was back then, less than a year ago, and I'm really glad I've been keeping this blog so I can watch myself grow and change as a person.
This sounds really corny. But its true.
I'm so glad that I have a place to myself to vent about things, even if its semi-public (but I know nobody reads this- there's not point to it! Its just ME). I can't do it in a diary- that does nothing. My thoughts have to go SOMEWHERE. Even if nobody's looking, its all here for people to read if they care enough.
Even though I have private, PRIVATE thoughts on here, I would love if people would read just to read. just to know about my life because they care. I want there to be somebody out there who cares what I think and wants to listen.
I was thinking about it the other day. I don't REALLY want to be an actress. Singing is fun, but I don't really want to be a singer either. I think I do, though, because what I really want is just to be famous. To speak, and have lots and lots of people who WANT to hear me, who WANT to listen. I want to be able to use my fame to make an impact.
I want my private life to be public (but also keep a privater private life to myself). I want to walk down the street and get photographed- it would make me so happy just to know that these people did it because I was important enough.
I sound really emo right now. Maybe its because its past midnight and I'm tired.
Goodnight moon. Goodnight stars.
I hope I dream.
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